urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hide__and__seek Epicgemarie Epicgemarie 2009-05-23T03:46:42Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hide__and__seek:57694 2009-05-23T03:46:42Z 2009-05-23T03:46:42Z im having a hard time. a really hard time.<br /><br />no title yet..i literally just finished it<br /><br />Maybe it’s safe <br />Maybe it’s safe to run from the sun<br />it burns let me know when its my turn <br />I'll jump<br />In <br />Haven’t had anything to eat<br />My stomachs grumblin these thoughts tumblin <br />Keeping me from sleep car shadows cruise along walls<br />Drownin daggers of brawls <br />Inner ear talks bout my sunrise beer <br />Quit bankin on fused time entwined in thankin tweets of robins in specific heats <br />Numbing sensation got me itchin, not switchin, dim the glitter, more fitter<br />This pinch hitter in place branding the word replace for the lack of running base<br />Mom still got those purple joints<br />Conversations controlled by exclamation points, these days<br />Been layin here since 805 now its 9<br />55 Chevy passin on ceilin too surrealin but its revealin high ways that got me in a daze<br />Daddys near the stove top in the kitch screamin out about his sales pitch <br />Don’t mean nothing but a bunch of gibberish <br />Relayin distortion questions of abortion got my heart in contortion<br />His lips still movin likes he’s an actor but he threw out the script screaming no way or my way <br />Replyin with dead ends are one way <br />Streets without the bend<br />I cant pretend that this anxiety blend is goin to somehow fizzle down and mend I but I do intend on working on bitter ends if only you could comprehend<br />I’ve heard the sun don’t shine forever but as long as its shining is it even possible to come together or should I forget about shining altogether?<br />But honestly let me see <br />I’d like to meet the one in charge of the bus stop mayhem propped up on our lawn whose responsible for early morn yawns<br />Suited up standing soap box tall <br />Preaching above all bout bottles of magic potion said to put mom back in motion<br />Ive got blood in my mouth from the hole in my tongue that was causing the sensations of numb<br />Ness that was mentioned before, I left out the part about being knocked out on the floor <br />I'm having episodes of déjà vu and I don’t look good in black and blue <br />But the celestial sphere does my memory is fuzzed <br />But I know third degree burns still scar the skin of the sky <br />I would have done anything to say goodbye<br />It’s hard but not harder than I thought <br />Distraught learning how hard I would have fought<br />To keep you here now, now I’m left with the same old fear of<br />Forever that feels so strong and I don’t think I can wait that long tell me why does this feel wrong?<br />Maybe it’s safe <br />Maybe it’s safe to run from the sun<br />But that burn it don’t matter if it’s my turn<br />Cause Im jumpin<br />Im jumpin in <br />Leavin behind the sound of trumpets or violins<br />It’s not about lose or win<br />It’s not about baring that grin<br />It’s about learning to surpass all feeling and taste the light within urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hide__and__seek:7490 2005-11-22T02:48:09Z 2005-11-22T02:48:09Z yes sirr.<br />friends only.<br />its dipsett